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My Spiritual Journey


January 22, 2014

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My early walk through Christianity that lead to the discovery of a new religion…


Hello Love


Greetings and Happy New Year to everyone!

To all that have read and supported my blog, I truly appreciate it. I hope that all of your New Year’s resolutions come to fruition. I want this blog to be about my life journey, and I want to share it with you.

Recently I broke up with my girlfriend of about a year and a half. This was a tough time for me emotionally, because this was the 1st relationship in which I believed she was “The One”. After realizing things weren’t going as planned, I was devastated. To help you understand the seriousness of the relationship, to this day I have a note saved in my phone outlining what the groomsmen and I were going to wear at our wedding. Yea… it was that deep.

After the smoke cleared I had to do some serious soul searching. I began to think about not just that relationship, but every relationship I have ever been in. I looked for ways to turn these “negative” situations into building blocks that I can use to become a better human being. During my meditations, I found out that my past relationships with women weren’t a “waste of time” or bad in any way. Everything in life happens for a reason, and it’s up to us to make the best of the situation and learn from it.

While soul searching, I decided to write down all of the emotions/feelings I have towards all of the women I’ve previously been romantically involved with. I had so much to say, that it ended up becoming a letter.


Hello love,

I hope you have been enjoying the new year. You, along with my past, have played a vital role in molding and shaping the man in the mirror I see today. I know you still think about me. It’s OK, I still think about you too. The love we shared (mental, physical, and spiritual) will remain with me forever. Sure there were some rough times, but in the end only the real remains, love.

Remember the sex? Yea, me too… we had some good times. The affection was my favorite though, the touching, kissing, and holding hands like there’s no tomorrow. It’s times like these that make life special. It’s what makes life worth living.

Quiet as kept, sometimes I get frustrated because the universe didn’t work out the way we planned. “You” and “I” are no longer “we”. And though “we” is in the past, my love for you will continue forever. I appreciate your existence. Your life has manifested into a valuable life lesson that I will cherish forever.

Love always,

N.D. Speed


Break ups can be tough, especially when you connect deeply with someone. However you have to realize that life goes on, and holding on to grudges/hurt feelings will only make your life miserable. We all believe we have the answers for love, but we don’t. In actuality, love is an extremely powerful/limitless emotion that we can only hope to understand. That doesn’t mean we should run from it, we should embrace it. I can’t fully describe to you what love is, but I can describe how it feels and tell you that it is the reason we all exist.

Until next time… One love.


The Root of All Evil


The Root of All Evil

December 18, 2013


The origins of US Currency. The Federal Reserve Bank. What the latin words on the US $1 bill mean. What “God” is the Federal Reserve referring to?

Watch “Interracial Dating/Relationships” on YouTube

December 17, 2013
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Discussing interracial dating/relationships. Exposing the race myth.

Be The Spark…


December 11, 2013


Description: A quote from Tupac in a 1994 Interview sheds light on his views of helping others, and making a difference in the world. Learn how you can be the spark to change the world…

Corrections: **In 2015, there will be 1 Billion people in the world living on $1 a day.**

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New Beginnings


December 4, 2013


DiaryOfASportsFanatic Video Blog: New Beginnings

Sharing insight on my new dedication to fitness and eating healthy, plus some Netflix recommendations!

Laker Nation Awaiting Kobe’s Return


December 6, 2013


It has been a long 8 months since Kobe Bryant tore his Achilles. Finally, a couple months into this NBA season, the Black Mamba is now on the verge of return. Despite ruling himself out for today’s game against the Sacramento Kings, Bryant believes he will be back very soon. The Los Angeles Lakers’ home game against the Toronto Raptors on Sunday is his latest target.  After three straight days of practice, Bryant said he was “pleased” with how he feels. However, there are still some lingering issues to overcome in his Achilles rehabilitation.

“The [left] ankle joint, that’s the thing that’s been restricted for so long,” Bryant said. “You’re talking about months of immobility, so you got to work through that a little bit. There’s still some scar tissue in there that needs to be broken up. That’s done through movement and therapy and mobilizations.”

The Lakers have surprisingly played some good basketball in their leader’s absence. They have a respectable 9-9 record to start the season, and their success can be attributed to their team work. LA’s bench has been the driving force, unlike past seasons. Jordan Farmer’s return to Hollywood, Xavier Henry, Nick Young, and Jordan Hill have all provided the energy, toughness, and hustle needed to win. Pau Gasol has been rounding into form as of late (averaging 16 ppg & 9 rpg in the last 10 games). All of these players have done a ton of growing together, and it must continue as the make the transition once Kobe returns.

While the team travels today to face the Kings, know that Kobe will working, doing everything in his power to return at full strength. In a chat with ESPN reporter David McMenamin, Kobe puts his hellacious workout regime in perspective…

“My training has no time restrictions in terms of when I do them,” Bryant said. “I can do them at 2 o’clock in the morning, 3 o’clock, it doesn’t matter. You just got to do them. The blackout is very intense. It’s a huge commitment. It’s 6-in-the-morning stuff and then take the kids to school and then go do another session with weights and shooting and practice, and then after that do some more practice. It’s an ongoing thing, and throughout all of that you have to take care of your body and take care of the knickknack injuries that may arise. It’s intense, but it’s fun.”

I’m not sure what Kobe Bryant we will see when he returns, but I’m sure as hell excited…